Today is my mom’s birthday what a cool day I have to say. To be able to celebrate this year with her, that is cool, I wish I could do more, take her to dinner, but at least I got her a gift and a card. Plus I got her the perfume she wanted, so I think she will be happy. I am very proud of myself, I connected with a teacher I used to have that I have been wanting to connect with but haven’t been able to. Normally I am just too shy and reserved to do anything, fearing that the person will not remember me and I feel in a sense kinda dumb for not taking his advice the first time when he encouraged me to pursue an art career. Anyways, I have reconnected and that is great. After reading the Last Lecture book it really made me think about realizing what and who is important in life. The relationships and connections in life are in the end what is important.
This has been a big issue for me, I have a hard time taking the time out to call and reconnect with friends. I get so involved in my daily routine, spending time with just my husband, family, and a few friends, that I feel like now I have closed out everyone else. Not on purpose, but I just sometimes feel so overwhelmed with work and life that I don’t even want to think about it. I get home from work, usually tired because I have just gone to the gym, shower, eat dinner, and wake up and do it all over again. By the end of the week I feel so burnt out, I just want to sit on the couch and do nothing. But where is this getting me in terms of life happiness, nowhere really. I am always so preoccupied with having to go to the gym after work that I don’t want to use that I don’t want to use that free time for anything else and if I do I always end up feeling really guilty. My goal as of today is to make an effort to start connecting with people I have lost touched with. I get nervous to talk to old friends and people I haven’t talked to in a long time, but really I should have nothing to be nervous about and it’s just plain silly to feel that way. I decided I’m done feeling like that!
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